I feel this way sometimes, and the phrase in my mind is, "I want to go home." Of course, my mind knows I am in my home, but that's not at all what I mean. It's a feeling, a place in my head.
It means I want to feel safe, taken care of, in an atmosphere that isn't stressful with a thousand things to think about and worry about, and have no idea what's going to happen.
Will it be good or bad? I wish we had enough money that we didn't need to worry about a, b, c, oh f**k I don't even want to think about d, how will e, f, g turn out! There is far in the future stuff, what if I have to, how will we handle, I'm not ready for this, or this or that other thing to happen yet, I'm really, really not, and I need to find doctors that will make accommodations, but their secretaries just give out the flat no, and since I can't go see a doctor in the winter without some emergency, they have to wait until May. May?? Really??? But it's only mid-February!!! Why didn't I get more time, I need more time and goddamn it, she had things she promised would get done before she left, so what the F do I do now?!?!? Yep all cryptic, because airing confidential medical stuff isn't the best idea with names and things attached. I should check previous posts. Sigh! Do I have an eye doctor? I think I do, because mine retired awhile ago and I *think* I got another one. Maybe? Sigh.
8:43 p.m. - Friday, Feb. 24, 2023
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