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1:27 p.m. | September 22, 2001
thoughts this is what i wrote randomly last night while watching the movie girl, interupted. i read the book before i saw the movie, months before. :-p. - it is tempting to let go, go into a mental hopsital and let everyone take care of you - everyone's story sounds worse than yours -gee i'm glad i'm not having to deal with that, but then, I sometimes think people couldn't deal with what i do - i know they couldn't - if a guy comes over to talk to you & he doesn't even know you he likes the way you look and move already - that has never happened to me - people who are mentally ill usually have a better insight into other peoples' mental state - people who work in mental hospitals have their mental flaws picked out for them by the patients and use them against those helping them - i think that paxil is messing with my brain, but i'm afraid to go off of it - i'm pretty sure that if i hadn't gotten sick i would have an eating disorder - i think i might anyway but it doesn't show because i get formula suppliments at night and so i get enough nutrition - if you let go, how do you get back? - a hospital is all control - reading your own medical file is a really strange experience - some people are so fragile - someday maybe he'll ask me to go with him - i need a better therapist and we hate those that really (truly) help us the most we don't want to be pulled into the real world again it's too hard, it's too bright - when you are crazy you can get away with more - why do i always want to say i'm sorry - what do you do when familiar is bad for you - i'd like to fit in my old clothes again because they makde me feel pretty
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Canada, Saskatchewan, Saskatoon, , English, , Female, 26-30, Reading.