My buttons are mostly broken. The whole diary looks messy from my point of view. I'm not sure how to fix it. My fingers have rebelled, this happens sometimes when I'm tired. I type a totally different word than what I meant to. Not a typo, but a correctly spelled absolutely different word from what I meant. I've been doing that for years though. Since I started chatting or soon after. Does anyone use Diaryland chat anymore? It used to be fun.
Actual post:
"I have an appointment with a new GP, but it isn't until May because they don't "do" house calls. Of course, they don't let you talk to the doctor either, and I'm not sure who is going to renew all of my prescriptions that will run out before May. What am I supposed to do? Get hypothermia, a panic attack, and risk getting sick with COVID (the first two happen when I get cold, I get hypothermia very quickly, shivering is bad for my muscles and exhausting). Well I'll do that anyway in May (risk getting sick, possibly die from COVID), I hope waiting in the van until they call me will mitigate this. I can't remember if I settled for a male doctor. I think I did which is stupid because there is no way I can let him do a breast exam much less a PAP smear. The last time that happened in the ER I can't remember if I cried or just went somewhere else. Likely the second. I think my dad drove me and Ian might have been there I don't remember. Dad could still lift me onto an exam table back then. I think they have to do it at the hospital now. Shit I should have found out if and where this doctor has hospital privileges. I think I took the man hoping to switch to a woman when I could. Ugh, my life is such a mess. How am I going to find a psychiatrist and then a psychologist that I can only see in warm weather. I mean how is that even going to help me if they won't make exceptions. I think there are online people, but I don't know if they are actually psychologists or just social workers; or how good they are. I've already gone as far as I can with social workers that will come to the house. They've even said that. Would a module online even be worth trying? Is a psychologist online width trying? Does anyone know what's worth trying?
I wonder if I could get my doctors who actually do house calls to talk to this new GP or any GP to convince them to do house calls? We even told the people at the desk of the new doctor; she uses a ventilator, has a stomach tube, can't talk, in a wheelchair, etc. That might be worth a shot. They might listen to the head of surgery? A pain specialist? Dr. Brodie is likely completely unavailable now, even though the letter said end of March. What is the date even, not March. (February apparently). Maybe we can keep calling her?Ugh, it's happening too fast!!! I really really wish I had gotten a lot more notice before she decided to retire. Maybe 6 months or a year? I hope I can talk to her before she goes. Maybe she is figuring something out already? Though sh is likely crazy busy. Maybe I should have started looking earlier for a new doctor just because of her age? I did ask her many times about when she planned to retire!! Sigh. Fuck my life. Are we allowed to swear here? I actually got banned from Facebook for a day or two for swearing once. Makes me wonder which of my friends reported me, because randoms aren't supposed to be able to see my posts, plus I swear all the time there. Random checks? Whatever.
2:43 a.m. - Friday, Feb. 24, 2023
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