I have been so tired lately that I haven't wanted to do anything at all, including writing in this journal. Today I finally feel better.
An update about the neighbours I wrote about a couple entries ago. It turns out that they are very nice people and their dogs are mastiffs not pitbulls. I haven't met them yet, but they are apparently very friendly. They got out of the garage that day by hitting the garage door opener. They were circling the car because they saw human beings in it and they were freezing cold (it had been about -30 C outside). My mom gets together with the neighbour lady all the time now.
As for things that were/are aggravating or upsetting for me. The one thing I was upset about was this guy I had been sort of seeing. He tends to go for a week without communicating with me and then telling me how much he likes me, thinks I'm beautiful and that I'm one of the only people he knows here in the city and on and on. When I'm talking to him or he's over here things are good but then he disappears on me and it's very frustrating. In all honesty I don't think we have enough in common (and in a few areas we are quite different) for us to be in any kind of relationship other than friends. He actually came over that Friday night but I haven't heard from him since and he doesn't answer any messages I send him online. In any case, I think the experiment is over and besides feeling it's rude of him to stop talking to me after getting me naked I realize that I don't really care if I don't talk to him again. That in itself feels kind of odd.
On Saturday night I was in for a bit of a shock. I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to feel about this except that now I'm much less upset because enough time has passed. In any case, that night I called my sister to see if her, her fiance and her friend who was in town visiting wanted to come over and hang out. My sister wanted to borrow my parents' van for some reason and Mom thought they could drive her to a friend's and then hang out here until she wanted to be picked up again. It turns out that my sister and her fiance were having a party. I was shocked because a) I hadn't known about it and b) I hadn't been invited. They usually have a party around this time of year because my sister's fiance's birthday is mid-January. At time I found out my sister started to say something over the phone about how their front steps are really icy and... I cut her off and said I didn't want to talk about it. I had been to this annual sort of party in years past, up those same (terribly annoying) front steps and so I didn't think icy stairs in this case was a very good excuse. All that said my Mom talked to my sister and found out that she had only known about the party for a day or so and it had been all the planning of the fiance for the most part. I know they are very busy people and it is an effort to get me transported to their house and then hoisted up the stairs into it, but it has been done before... I also heard it was a small party with just "a few close friends", so I shouldn't have worried about being excluded. I have two comments here. One, they (or just my sister's fiance) thought it was too much effort to invite me over and therefore decided just not to invite me or tell me about the party. Two, it was just close friends and therefore I'm not a close friend of theirs so I wasn't invited or told about the party. Another thing that burns my bottom is that I know for a fact that my sister and her fiance spend alot of time with his brother and he was at the party as well so it's not the fact that I'm family. All that said, I have yet to talk to my sister about it because she's studying for exams and I plan to be calm when we do discuss it. The things that bother me is that I tend to get forgotten by my sister for many things that I could conceivably be invited along for, they don't really visit me very often and more than anything else I HATE the idea that they might view me as a burden instead of a friend.
Now to lighten the mood, here are some pics of my kitties.
Salinger in my Wheelchair
Classic Darwin Pose
2:49 p.m. - Thursday, Jan. 27, 2005
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